I need to lie to survive.

I told my therapist I had attempted suicide just a week prior. Instead of providing any support, she instead told me how selfish I had been, only a week after my attempt.

I ran off in tears. I wrote a note blaming her and the rest of the psychiatric system for what I was about to do, and did it.

One of the main reasons I have avoided attempting again is my fear of the mandatory institutionalization that would come after.

I had to get better on my own without any "professional help", because I was terrified of these alleged professionals being just like her. Even now, I simply lie about my experiences to them.

I need to lie to survive.